"I want to explain how exhausted I am. Even in my dreams. How i wake up tired. How I’m being drowned by some kind of black wave."
- Elizabeth Wurtzel, Prozac Nation (via larmoyante)
(via smallwoman-bigmouth)
"I want you to tell me about every person you’ve ever been in love with. Tell me why you loved them, then tell me why they loved you. Tell me about a day in your life you didn’t think you’d live through. Tell me what the word “home” means to you and tell me in a way that I’ll know your mothers name just by the way you describe your bed room when you were 8. See, I wanna know the first time you felt the weight of hate and if that day still trembles beneath your bones."
- Andrea Gibson (via shetakesflight)
(via smallwoman-bigmouth)
"You’ll meet her. She’s very pretty, even though sometimes she’s sad for many days at a time. You’ll see, when she smiles, you’ll love her."
- Pan’s Labryrinth (via thinkstrawberry)
(via smallwoman-bigmouth)
Estrada. -sigh-
"
All I ever wanted you to do was feel this feeling. Be this way. Exhale the sky.
All you ever did was feel different. Be away. Wash your hands with air.
All I love is a feeling. I still feel this way. I cannot breathe.
I still forget there’s air out there.
I still forget how white hot everything was.
I still forget myself.
There’s nothing wrong with this.
There’s nothing true about this.
There’s nothing.
You were once everything I felt.
You were once everything.
You were, once.
And if love moves like air, then teach me how to dig my nails into the palm of my hand so I can remember what you once felt like.
"- I Wrote This For You
SINGLE, FUCKED OVER, but I’m going to be just fine.
So this is how it feels to have this much in your system?
Shivering body, goose bumped thighs.
It reminds me a lot of the day I first kissed you, and you kissed me back, and I was so happy I could die instantly. Except this is how it feels to be so messed up that you could die instantly. Funny how it all meets eye to eye.
It’s such a thrill to almost be there, and know that just a bit more would have pushed it too far, but you did take it that far so now you’re just waiting for the time to pass..for the lights to dim, for your heart to race until it can’t even beat anymore.
So this is the feeling everyone longs for. Not love, the other one.
You must have forgotten who I become when I feel neglected.
